Sunday, March 18, 2012

SubDiary: Apabila Pisau Bertukar Tangan



Ok, you as a reader will be the judge. And of course this is from my perspective. i will write what i observed, know & felt honestly.
i had this friend "D" she felt that "L" was a floater ( the one who allign with everybody) then sometime talk bad or pull someone else to other side. His only reason is that he friend with all people..its ok but you dont friends with other people and talk behind them with others. "L" also will try to close with people who he just met and left his old friend on second place.He will stick with the side which support his argument although his point is wrong and avoid the side who give him any advice . I agree with D coz i felt and observe the same. We decide to let L do whatever he wanna do then when he realize he need us, he will come to us back sooner or later.btw We called him "Lalang"

1 day, L tried to avoid D when she asked something. Then other friends asked L, she found out that L try to keep something secret although its supposed to share with a lot of people. On that day, me and L supposed to looking for a house for us so that we can stay outside college next semester. Than, i called him, he said he was busy, so we postponed to look for the house in evening.

when we found out about the secret, me , D and some other people want to figure it out. The secret is actually a session that 1 of our lecturer made to help us get some better carry mark and can get some tips, advice or questioning anything b4 exam. Our Vice Academy affair also told me about this. but only some of them know about it & not spread it enough coz they want to make a class for them.

i stood infront of L and asked "What you guys doing?" He said they was studying. "I asked again, "Why study here? (outside the building)" Then he answered that they just want to study there. He asked me " Where do u want to go?" I said " I want to meet someone". duhh...he didnt said to me about the session even a bit although i can see more students from the class went into the lecturer room. i was like :O really? you want to keep it for yourself?

after that he admitted that he need to keep the secret but he also blammed the other group who ask him to joined. so with all the things happened, i felt hesitate to be his housemate. but i kept my choices opened because i need numbers to get a house and rent together. if not i must make plan B to rent alone or go with other people.

when semester break, i try looking for house but didnt get any which is available and cheaper. guess what L's achievement? he just found some telephone number but asked me to call it . i replied him late bcoz my hp was missing.i was ... why u dont call it yourself? just a call -_-" im not so suprised bcoz b4 this he always be like that to..coward to do something.a week before new semester will start, i messaged him to inform him about a house but he didnt replied anything. Then i know that im alone and decide to along by myself.

on the semester break also i decide to stay away from D because she stabbacked me in an online game. for me its not about the game, but the way she choose it. I said think wisely - want to stick with the people who u know or someone who u never see his face. she made a wrong move . and not just because of that, after that i read her blog. then i realize her perspective towards some people. b4 this i just be patient and let her negativity about other things and people. but then i decide some time to stay away from her and see what will happen.

tadaaa.. the new semester started. Guess what?? D and L become closer although i can see L still be the floater. Before this D always mad about her friend who backstabbed her. now, i think she just got the knife. When they met me in Surau they just ignored me. Then, when we was waiting for some class to start, L asked me " Where do u live now?" i let my other friend answered it. And they said im staying at my parents house/ hometown. (just like when i keep it secret from everyone b4 i revealed it to certain friends). i know that L already applied college hostel. so he will not have problem. moreover he got a friend who can give him some place to stay.

I DONT WANT to talk with L on his face about all these things because im affraid i will be emotional- will be mad or sad or both.. because he WAS my friend....... .
maybe i was wrong about everything but they never try to give better explaination and they also have admitted it in certain things and there are a lot of witnesses.
btw i do will forgive them if they ask and i apologize to them if i do wrong but we must change our behavior or anything to make a better (action) not just give a word. if not they will just be my kenalan (someone who i know) that i know can give a **** anytime ~


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